dandelion,dandelionIf you know me in real life, follow me on Twitter, or are a friend of mine on Facebook, you already know that this pregnancy has been very hard on me.

What you may not know is that it took me a long time to get used to the idea of being pregnant. It wasn’t that I didn’t want another baby – I just didn’t want to be pregnant. I was just beginning to feel good again, after having the Mirena removed (which had been the cause of so many emotional and physical issues), when bam! I’m emotional, cranky, and just plain miserable again. Once again, I’m not feeling myself.

I’m praying that the real me will return once Baby arrives. Until then I have to remind myself daily of the truth, when it’s so easy to believe the lies…

Lie :: I am so lazy
Truth :: While it feels like I am always laying around, in my pj’s most days, I have been given the order to “stay off my feet” and “take it easy.” My ankles begin to ache and swell, my uterus begins to spaz and I overdo it when I do begin to exert any shred of energy I may have. No excuses, just truth.

Lie :: My children are suffering by my laziness lack of energy
Truth :: My children and I have had some great snuggle and story time, lessons in patience have have been learned (by all of us), and my older kids have had to step up a bit when it comes to helping out around the house. These things would not have been accomplished, to this degree, without this mandatory “down time.” Dare I say this season will prove to have been good for us all, in the long run?

Lie :: I hate being pregnant
Truth :: I hate the way I feel while being pregnant. This time. I LOVE the fact that I am carrying a baby. A baby who is healthy and will be loved and cuddled. I am extremely blessed to have been given so many beautiful and healthy children to teach, train and love.

Lie :: I’m no fun to be around
Truth :: I am emotional. I am cranky. I am tired. I am in physical pain. The tiniest things can bring me to tears, as quickly as the big things. I snap at my kids and bark at my husband. I am not proud of this, nor do I care to make excuses. Instead, I pray daily that God would not only help me forget about myself, but that He would give my family and friends grace to love me in spite of myself.


He said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.”
Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses,
so that Christ’s power may rest on me.

(2 Corinthians 12:9)


  1. says

    Oh, Christine, you have written out exactly how I am feeling. {this current pregnancy has been very, very rough on me}

    Thank you so much for such a well-written, truthful post. I am goin to print it out when I begin to believe those lies!

    Hang in there, this baby-growing business isn’t easy. {hugs}

  2. says

    Hang in there girl!!!! Thinking of you and the baby and hoping you get all the rest you can. That is important!! Sending lots of love and good vibes. xoxo

  3. says

    WOW! I just recently had my mirena removed (6 weeks ago) after doing some research on why I was so depressed and felt just plain crazy. I can’t believe how debilitating it was after I thought I had found a great answer. Ev breathes on me and I’m pregnant too :) I feel amazingly better and I’m just stunned that it isn’t more widely proclaimed how horrible this IUD is. Thanks for helping get the word out there and I pray this pregnancy gets easier for you!
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  4. says

    Oh, Christine. I love that you are responding with truth! Pregnancy is hard – I was on bed rest for 6 weeks and felt horribly guilty the entire time, so I can relate to what you are feeling. This will pass and God will sustain you!
    sending a prayer!
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  5. Sarah says

    So sorry this pregnancy has been so hard on you. You’re in the home stretch! Just about a month left!! In a couple months, this will all be but a dream, and you’ll have your sweet little baby boy. Until then, I know, it sucks.

  6. says

    I hear ya Christine! I have been having many of those same thoughts during this pregnancy (and my last pregnancy as well). I was very focused on losing weight and getting fit, even lost the weight I gained during my last pregnancy. I was on my way to working on the weight I gained during my first pregnancy when I found out I was pregnant with our third child! But, what a blessing! And, this too shall pass (and I imagine I will probably miss the baby kicks especially since this will probably be our last child). Someday I will be able to work on losing the baby weight and have a lot more energy

  7. says

    Oh, Chris, I’m so sorry to see you so uncomfortable and in pain. I wish I could help you out more. Never believe those lies. You are a such an amazing, loving, caring and giving friend and sister, you are a blessing to many including me! I love you very much. {{HUGS}}

  8. Sheri says

    Christine, thanks for sharing your thoughts. My last pregnancy was so hard too. I felt like an emotional, chubby mess who no one could like because I wasn’t too fond of myself either. I remember the quiet stories with my older kids on the couch and “life lessons” for all of us to go through it together. Katie is right here with me now and although it sounds so cliche, I would do it all again for this precious child. Hang in there….you’ve almost made it…